Talked tonight with one of the closest friends I've ever had, certainly the most consistent one my life has known. His mom is dying, has been for a while; he left work today to go and be with the family.
I was supposed to go out and visit next week, just hang out with him and catch up in person.
But now we aren't sure how much longer she'll be alive.
When he first told me she was sick, I vowed to myself that I would do whatever I could, even if it involved emptying my bank account, to cross the country and be there with him during that.
Now, it looks like that just might happen. And I feel as adamant about it now as I did then.
i don't know why God gives us the grace to be able to sit with one another during times of crap, but he does. I'm grateful for it. And I don't know what my friend needs right now (his emotional life has always been complicated... in that over logical, emotion-who? sort of way) and I don't know if I can make things any better, but God help me do my best and try.
Heavy heart tonight.
Wish I could be there right now for him. But I'm not the one who knows best. If he feels that I wouldn't be a hindrance there, I'm still flying out. Just waiting for the word.
Love.
Sometimes life is funny. And sometimes it sucks. And sometimes it's a lot of fun. I'm learning to find hope (and sometimes even humor) in all of it. Hope first. Then humor.
Me
- Melinda
- I'm a 25yr-old survivor of a conservative Bible college. I like to think and to find ways to see art in things because other people like them. A friend calls it "falling in love with everything," but I just like the idea of learning to like things because someone else does. I'm trying to figure out what it looks like to see the good in people and issues and the world.
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